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Nov. 11th, 2002 10:27 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
enteleinI am a little disturbed by some of the hive-minded behavior I see some of my friends engaging in. I feel removed from it, and I can't get too close, it's like a poison to me right now. Toxic emotions, toxic judgmental attitudes based on secondhand information. I understand it, and I am certainly not decrying anyone's emotions, but I do hope that the people involved understand that I'm undecided as to how I feel about everything, and that self-preservation is something that has proven to be the wiser stance.
I've always been the most loyal and forgiving and giving of friends. I will talk to the death any issues you may have with me, I will search for clarification, and I will always give that second chance a 5th time, you know?
But knowing this about me, and knowing how it's wrecked me in the past, I know now that passing judgment on other people, deciding for them how they should live their lives, defining how a life should be lived when I don't know how to live my own life effectively ... that way lies madness, and I will have none of it, not right now. I don't have the resources.
When a friend is in need, I'll know what to do when the time comes. I am hoping I can be there when it matters.
This is all very vague meandering bullshit which is preamble to this: I hope everyone's finding peace and resolution, no matter how much you want another person to be 'better' in your eyes. In the grand scheme of things, that's really what matters.
I've always been the most loyal and forgiving and giving of friends. I will talk to the death any issues you may have with me, I will search for clarification, and I will always give that second chance a 5th time, you know?
But knowing this about me, and knowing how it's wrecked me in the past, I know now that passing judgment on other people, deciding for them how they should live their lives, defining how a life should be lived when I don't know how to live my own life effectively ... that way lies madness, and I will have none of it, not right now. I don't have the resources.
When a friend is in need, I'll know what to do when the time comes. I am hoping I can be there when it matters.
This is all very vague meandering bullshit which is preamble to this: I hope everyone's finding peace and resolution, no matter how much you want another person to be 'better' in your eyes. In the grand scheme of things, that's really what matters.
