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[entelein]

Tomorrow the cat named Gromit Wells will meet her Feline Maker in the Great Beyond.

Her cancer has been spreading and progressing a lot more quickly as of late, and there's nothing we can do for her, so we're having her put to sleep so that we can end her suffering, as well as our own.

It's been awful, quite frankly. The right side of her face is completely changed by the cancer, her eye is swollen shut. She is bone-thin now, sometimes stumbles when she walks. Her fur is also looser - she's been obsessively pulling at one patch of skin at her collarbone, and it is bald now. I can't help but think that's because she is feeling crappy and upset. I soothe her the best I can, when I can, doing gentle hot compresses to her face, petting her, giving her her favorite treats.

I really can't write any more than this right now, because it's fucking killing me. Fucking cat, fucking cancer, fucking guilt, fucking stupid-ass uselessness I am feeling over this living creature I was not able to help.

Fuck.

Comments

[anotheryourself.livejournal.com]

i'm so sorry!

[firesign3000.livejournal.com]

i understand how you feel. ive had to have two dogs put to sleep over the years. one was very old and suffered a stoke. we did what we could until it was clear that he would never recover enough to have any quality of life, so it was time to let go. i'd raised this dog since he was a pup small enough to hold in one hand. i still miss him terribly after all these years. the other also contracted bone cancer, which apparently is not uncommon with huskys. all we could do was keep him comfortable until we just couldnt help him with the pain anymore. i felt the same as you. the vet said that in both cases we did more than most people do. most people wouldve just had them put to sleep. youve done the same for gromit. you did all you could. its nobodys fault. i know its no comfort right now, but youre doing the right thing.

[phyx.livejournal.com]

Oh, honey. That must be so hard for you. It's so wonderful of you to do what you are already doing for her, those little things that make her suffering a bit more tolerable. I'm so sorry.

Poor Gromit!

[sistawendy.livejournal.com]

Poor kitty. Poor you. Medicine has limits, though, and not all of Bill Gates's ill-gotten gains could make Gromit live much longer.

[p7a77.livejournal.com]

Breaks the heart. I'm sure the things you're doing for her are helping her feel better and loved. You're doing the right thing, however. When I was a child, my mother had a dog that she let suffer for way too long. The long-term guilt you'd feel about letting her suffer will far outweight that for your euthenasia. My good thoughts are with you.

[violentblue.livejournal.com]

love for you and gromit. reading your post made my chest hurt and my eyes well up. seek what comfort you can in knowing that you gave her comfort and happiness when she needed it most.

love mako

awww

[amiev.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry! That is the worst feeling ever, and I feel very sad for you and your kitty. :(

[lilituc.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry.

[ratnix.livejournal.com]

I'm very sorry for you.

[mutantur.livejournal.com]

There's not a whole lot one can say in a situation like this. Transitions and all...everything's changing all at once now, it's seemed to me. I hope you can deal with this with a minimum of suffering. *hug*

[maribou]

Ah, Wells.
That sucks.
Sucks sucks sucks.
I'm very sorry.

[bientot.livejournal.com]

Others have said it already and said it better than I could, but I just had to say something--a long-distance hug from Seattle and my sincere sympathy and hope and comfort.

[pencat.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry. :(