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[entelein]

I am luminescent. I am at ease. I am calmer. It makes the people around me
uneasy. They don't like a storm at peace. It's a power I am uneasy with,
but it feels better than I've felt in months. I am luminescent.

warmth and heat and light and you and me and what?

He's uneasy. I calm his unease. The unease flares up again, like a fever, a rash, a self-fulfilling prophecy.

Cinco cinco cinco cinco cinco cinco cinco cinco. Fin.

Comments

Umm...

[(Anonymous)]

No offense, but what in the MOTHERFUCK are you talking about? I mean, I'm sure you mean something, but I can not figure what it might be.

Re: Umm...

[entelein.livejournal.com]

It's OK. Take a deep breath, and start over.

I'm sort of a stormy person. I flare up at stupid stuff sometimes, I have emotional tides, and generally people expect me to have a strong reaction to most things. I think it's a fairly normal human thing.

However, I've been feeling immensely calm recently, for a number of reasons, and this unsettles the people I am around most. They don't know how to react to this eye in the storm, and they doubt their own reactions, because they (suddenly) don't have the same old context of relating to me that they did last week. Unease. Uneasy.

And then, at the very end, I repeated the number "five" several times, and then I said I was done.

My sincerest apologies for being so obtuse.

Now, your turn. Tell me something about yourself.

Re: Umm...

[(Anonymous)]

I'd like to feign astonishment, but it comes as no surprise that your answer to a very simple question was just as convoluted as all of your posts. Do you speak the way you write? If so, I suspect you don't have many friends...

Re: Umm...

[entelein.livejournal.com]

It's actually really simple. I'm referring to stuff in my life that is hard to explain with a degree of comfort. It's also because I don't have the words for it. At least, words that anyone outside of my head would understand immediately.

If it doesn't make sense to you, and you feel the need to resort to theorizing about how large or small my social set is, that's your prerogative. (Out of interest, I do and I don't talk like how I post. Do you use the word "feign" regularly, like in every day speech?)

I'm just going to keep posting whatever the fuck is in my head. You don't have to read it.